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You start to wonder if you’re ever gonna make it by...you’ll start to think you were born blind...
05.22.04 (9:48 am)   [edit]
Gonna make you like the way they talk when they’re talking to you. Gonna make you break out of the shell cause they tell you to. Gonna make you like the way they lie better than the truth. They’ll tell you everything you wanted someone else to say. They’re gonna break your heart.

:matchbox 20:


When that big decision is made, doesn't it suck to know you chose wrong?

So maybe I had too much philosophy last semester...but I was thinking the other night, everybody is always telling everyone else to 'follow their heart'...why do humans believe in the heart like the heart is incapable of lie? What if those inner feelings (that we claim are our hearts speaking) are wrong? What if we are capable of deceiving ourselves?

You make a choice, claiming you are following your heart, but how many times has that blown up in your face? I personally recall many times when I believed I was doing what was in my heart only to later discover it made me completely and utterly miserable. One decision even threw me into stages of depression. My heart wasn't right. And I paid for that.

Then there's the line, 'follow your heart and you'll never be lonely'. Whoever said that was a liar.

I mean sometimes it works out...but lots of times it doesn't and you just end up more wounded than you were in the first place.

Maybe I think about stuff like this too much. Or maybe other people don't think about it enough. All I know is that my heart's been wrong in the past.

It's been really right this time though. And maybe that's the key...eventually we all get it right.

{kara}
 
Great love...
05.20.04 (5:51 am)   [edit]
[b]Love[/b] you get over in two months, [b]big love [/b]you get over in two years, and [b]great love[/b], well great love...changes your life. So which one is it?

:tad hamilton:


I have the most [u]amazing[/u] guy. He makes me feel like the most important person in the world...he makes me feel like the [b]only[/b] person in the world. And just when I think it can't possibly get better (because he's already the most caring, sweet, honest, and intelligent person I know)...it does.

He leaves flowers on my car, sends me mail because he knows I love it, or visits me at work with candy. He goes out of his way to remind me that he's so in love with me. Most importantly, he makes me completely and utterly content. When he's around I feel safe and loved. He makes me a better person just by being in my presence. His smile infects me...I'm so in love with him, too.

It's unbelievable how he's changed my life.

Oh my god, it's great love. :D

{kara}
 
So I fall again...
05.18.04 (1:04 pm)   [edit]
Hope life's been good to you. Since you've been gone, I'm doin' fine now...I've finally moved on. It's not so bad...I'm not that sad.

I'm not surprised just how well I survived. I'm over the worst, and I feel so alive. I can't complain...[b]I'm free again[/b]...

:shania:


:oops: ...so I didn't last long with the whole abandonment of the online journal thing. I'm finding now that it's summer I have too much time on my hands. And I just looove rambling on and on. :wink: No seriously, I like putting my thoughts into words as best as I can. So enjoy...and feel free to check out my old journal or pictures and leave me feedback.

{kara}